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There are times when your life feels like one big, continuous 'error page' with no letting up. What is the opposite of error? Non-error. Everything is right. Everything is on track. You didn't drop that bowl, you didn't accidentally fall on the sidewalk and hit your head, you didn't do this or that endless parade of things that could be considered a big fat mistake. But then you hear the people say mistakes are how you learn. Learn from fucking up utterly, then pick yourself up and proceed again without mistake. You get to play the part of a real-life computer glitch. Fuzzy then back to normal. VHS. Rewind and re-do. Or you don't learn one bit and you keep fucking up. Everyone is different in what they glean from what they see as their mistakes. How can we lift ourselves up from a mess that we've made? How can we move forward and be better this time? Not break it, not keep making that same mistake? I don't quite know how to put a good answer into words. It all simply feels like one big giant mess sometimes. And that's what it is, until it's not. Everything is a process, and all you can do sometimes is weave your way through until you get to the light at the end of the tunnel; that momentary light after all that darkness. Appreciate the hell out of it before it goes away again. It's that big wide-open space where you can breath again for a little bit and you're grateful for the elation. Feels like happiness. Feels like an epiphany. It is.